went job hunting again yesterday
and pushed that non-drinking date back a bit
i rehearsed sobriety on the slow walk home from center city
a refrain that may just work
does baybee need his BABA?
do you need your crutch?
your familiar excuse/bestfriend?
is reality a lil to harsh for you pussy?
then do something
this stirring call to action didnt quite work out
mr thrifty took over
and mr reason
monday was a boozeless day and i was going a lil crazy trying to be lazy and inefficient
it was a struggle to stay unproductive
so on a more productive tuesday, vowing never to "waste" another of these precious gifts that GOD GIVES ME EVERY FRIGGIN DAY
thanks dude
what a treat
i went to bed a loser and woke up a new man
a loseer one day older but with possibilities
i got the addresses together
got my tokens out
grabbed a great book and was off to face the world
to rise to the challenges that life presented
and if neccessary to make lemonade
the first ad i answered was for warehouse help
and guarunteed 400 a week
and "as much work as you can handle"
i called earlier and was put off a bit by how rude the girl on the phone was
curt
what did the ad say?
thats what you get
when asked where the wearhouse was she said "on the main line"
which is old money territory,
not warehouse territory
but i ignored these signs in my greed
400 pays the bills
heh heh
ill get mad overtime
i can handle work
the ride will be a bitch but i can read and its will be great to get some steady cash
i find the place
and walk right
on the window is painted
executive marketing concepts
ive been scammed again
the furniture is cheap and looks temporary
there are big NBA and other corp. logos on the wall
adding credibility
but the application was short
and you were supposed to circle your area of interest in the company
there were five areas
inventory, marketing, and a few others
all that could be skewed by the clever ahole in the back
to make you belive that you could sell their crap for them
the only limit was your hard work
and attitude
dont let other peoples opinions drag you down
not neccessarily door to door
go to offices
"practice" on your family and friends
its a scam i did not once, not twice but three times with varying levels of belief
you could see the boxes of inventory stacked in the office
there was no warehouse
i did my best to warn the other applicants before i wasted another minute of my time
i probably should go back, all gung ho and waste there time
keep a secret log of their promises and come ons
except i lived that crap already
i dont know the details of their soul stealing scam is
but the gist is that they want you to sell your friends and neighbors and then theyre cool
they made their money
maybe you need to try harder
or attend a sales training seminar
or work on your attitude
remember every no is one step closer to yes
thoughts are things
nothing worthwhile is ever easy

so that was a bust
so was the security job fair
i think they brushed me off
i should still send in a resume
maybe i will

then i applied for a kitchen job and got blown off
she said my background seemed more front of the house
and referred me to another interview
which was in the lobby of a building i worked on while at the stock exchange
which means its a wash
i never want to see those money mad pricks again
it would not be pretty
or do i just fear success
a job with a growing string of restaurants would be keen
i could help them grow their business
be their GO-TOO GUY
yeah and before long i could help run a store
then open my own in another city yeah the dream is still alive here in philly
look out world
here comes a winner