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in the long laundry list of incredibly shitty jobs i think im going for the creme de le resistance when i go to get my self a bike messenger job tommorrow in the dead of winter
if they'll have me
should be a healthy job
get in shape
freeze my ass off
think about what i have done
im giving myself a time out from reality with an unreal job
a ridiculous job
the folks from the coffee shop were good enough to call and blow me off
"hello william this is passeros coffee kiosk"
(i write william on job applications)
"just calling to let you know that we've decided to go another way"
this job would have paid more than the one i had in the summer
moving 12 foot tall two hundred pound plus limestone slabs around and onto the cutting table
nostrils clogging from the dust
cancer causing dust
some from the leaded shit they add to the block windows we make with lime, also bad
going home covered in bad dust
the limestone dust is particularly nasty
the long term employee has no sensation in his nose and is permanently clogged
but he has two kids to feed
i called him the rock troll
had the exact beard the dwarf had in the lord of the rings
squared off, a foot down
my job seeking process is a series of tradeoffs in dignity, cash and hustle
i busted my ass schlepping the rock slabs but people left me alone
i tore up my hands but it was a good workout
for slightly more money i was willing to smile at people and serve them coffee
pretending to like them for cash
your service is my business
jobs have a worse affect on my life than drugs
when ima teacher i have to put on the tie
be polite
care about someones unwanted love mistakes
kids are funny and all, but how do you explain reality to them
"um, yeah son, yer daddy and mommy were part of an incredibly shortsighted and selfish race who burned dinosaurs in their internal combustion engines and destoyed the air and climate. We also filled the air with mercury tainted coal smoke because we loved out big screen tv's and computers and hoped the scientists could save our asses with some sort of miracle discovery at the last minute. We were slaves to technology and thats why there are no animals anymore. now eat your protein pill and dont forget to check your personal air filter if youre going outside"
so i cant really teach school and remain honest
kids need to be lied to
to be told everything is gonna work out
that a college degree is the answer
that they should follow the rules
that cops are your friends
taht santa and the easter bunny are working with the tooth fairy to garuntee that their parents life style will be their own some day
that the future has promise and unlimited potential
that priests and scout masters really like kids and not in the nasty way
that the boogie man is made up and not real
the bird flu will be fun
im looking forward to that lovely mutation
bwe alot less assholes atound when the flu kills them all off with their weakened mindsets and false belief systems