i turned off the craving for alcohol in a conversation
im not that thirsty anymore
twenty years of unquenchable thirst
seeking that numbing rush
programmed to do so be the media
i need a drink
i had a bad day i need a drink
who needs a drink in the movies, on tv?
heros, up against the world....
then, in comedies, the exasperated, the put upon, the crazy...
the idea that you need booze to cope with lifes turmoils and traumas is marketing
theres no other way to cope with lifes problems
self prescribe booze in any flavor you need
and the problems are gone until tommorrow

jesus christ superstar song goes like this
"close your eyes, close your eyes and relax
everythings alright yes everythings fine"

you wake up with a headace and thats the new problem
you are dehydrated shaky...brief exhilaration hits your body as it tries to heal itself from the poisoning from the previous night
then you crash around noon and feel like crap
and set the goal of making happy hour and repoisoning yourself

i dont have the inclination to be addicted to alcohol for a while
it will always be there
waiting for me
ready to take me back
we missed you buddy
unconditional acceptance
the warm embrace of intoxication
taking toxins in
a toxic vacation from reality

tv is another toxic vacation from reality
thats next on the hitlist
then this stupid internet
then maybe my thoughts can become clearer
closer to purity
closer to true reality